You hurt me more than I deserved....all just because I loved u more than u deserved

When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it’s the hardest thing you could ever go through, and no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you’re getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart for the hundreth
time, and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. You love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn’t. They hurt you worse than you’ve ever been hurt
They stole your happiness. But yet, you still want them, and only them. Other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don’t want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would. And even if they broke all of their promises, you want to keep yours. 
On top of that, you’re terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. But it’s not like that matters anyway. At the end of the day you’re still thinking about that person who has left you completely broken. You don’t want to miss them anymore. You don’t want to love them anymore, but you know you always will. ♥

A Poem About Boys

A heart is not a play thing,
a heart is not a toy,
but if you want it broken,
Just give it to a boy.
Boys they like to play with things
To see what makes them run,
But when it comes to kissing,
They do it just for fun.
Boys never give their hearts away
They play us girls for fools,
They wait untill we give our hearts
And then they play it cool.
You will wonder whether he is a knight
You will wonder if he's true,
One moment you will be happy,
One moment you will be blue.
If you get a chance to see him
Your heart begins to dance
Your life revolves around him,
Theres nothing like romance.
 And then it starts to happen,
You worry day and night
You see, my friend,
you're losing him It never turns out right.
Boys are great,
though immature The price you pay is high,
He may seem sweet and gorgeous
But remember, he's a guy.
Don't fall in love with just a boy
That takes alot of nerve.
You see, my friend, you need a man
To get what you deserve.
So when you think that you're in love,
Be careful if you can
Before you give your heart away
Make sure that he's a man.

Thinking about u..

U r the one who I always think,
I even see ur face everytime I blink.
I really don't know why am I acting like this,
All I know that it is u who I miss.

When I think about u, my eyes seemed to glow,
When I dream of u, I hoped for no tomorrow.
To be with u right now is what I've wished
`Coz it is really u whom my heart has missed.

I believe that we will be together sooner or later.
How I hope that the time and day will pass faster
So that I'll be with u and hug u tight,
And never let go of you with all my might.

'Coz I really miss u'

A girl's th0ught.................♥

Marriage is an important phase of live for everyone

but for a girl its the most amazing decision of her life.

... A girls dreams and wishes for his life partner.....

I want a hubby who would hold my hand in lines at the mall ..or while crossing roads..so that i feel
protected ♥

I want someone who would sing to me at random moments...:)

Someone who wud respect my maturity and love my
innocence too.
Someone who would let me fulfill my responsibilities
towards my mum dad and would love my family like
his own ♥

I want a guy who will accept me with love and make me feel a part of his family.

Someone who I could share my fears, my laughs, my
smile and my tears.

Someone who would not get angry over my mistakes instead scold me like my mother n then help
me to learn doing that thing again.

But mostly, someone who would b loyal to me and will always be the reason for my smile ♥
And i promise to such a guy...i would always prove
his trust right....i would be his family....and i would
love and respect his parents like my own mom dad....:)

‎..:: I Often Think When I Might Sin ::..

I often think when I might sin,
What if the Angel would come to me then?
Would I want to be risen doing that sin?
I often think quietly to myself,
Where will I go, oh, where will I go,
When the Angel comes to me?

What if the Angel comes at night,
With a command from Allah to take my soul?
Where will I run, oh, where will I run?
What if the Angel comes to me when I’m driving my car?
Can I lock my doors, so the Angel can’t get in?
Where will I hide, oh where will I hide?

I often think when I might sin,
What if the Angel would come to me then?
Would I want to be risen doing that sin?
I often think quietly to myself,
Where will I go, oh where will I go,
When the Angel comes to me?

What if the Angel comes in the middle of tea?
Maybe I can plead for a later return.
How will I plead, oh, how will I plead?
What if the Angel comes to me when I’m watching TV?
Can I beg to the Angel for a little more time?
How will I beg, oh how will I beg?

I often think when I might sin,
What if the Angel would come to me then?
Would I want to be risen doing that sin?
I often think quietly to myself,
Where will I go, oh, where will I go?
When the Angel comes to me?


[Written by: MyummahCoZa]

Im Beautiful

There are moments in a woman's life when her heart flips in her chest, when the world suddenly seems

uncommonly pink and perfect, when a symphony can be heard in the tinkle of a doorbell.

Something warm and lovely spreads in my chest..I couldn't quite explain it; it was

almost as if someone had heated my blood. It started in my heart and then slowly swept through my arms, my belly, down to the tips of my toes.

Im not beautiful.I know tat im not beautiful, I knew i'd never be more than passably

attractive, and that was only on my good days. But he thinks tat I  am beautiful, and when he looks at me..

I feel beautiful. And I have never felt that way before.I want  to be beautiful, even if it was only in one man's eyes.

"You are beautiful," he said, shaking his head in confusion. "I don't know why nobody else sees it."

Fear

I have taken over you,
Growing slowly throughout the years.
I gave you visions of ecstasy
While I fed upon your fears;
I made you feel inadequate,
I crept into your soul;
I was growing, ever stronger
As your heart was growing cold.
I let you see only hopelessness,
the hurting pain and strife.
I pushed until your will collapsed
so I could own your very life.

Now, I am feeling some resistance,
I can feel your spirit grow.
I sense somewhere in the distance
You are searching for your soul.
My life is slowly ebbing,
Into darkness I must go;
But as I lie here sleeping
I will never cease to grow.
For I am always in you,
I will never truly end.
So you must keep a constant vigil
Or I will own you once again.

I will lie here always
Creating voices in your mind.
So you must keep a constant vigil
For I am always keeping mine.

By: John Sabo 

My head is Messed up

My head is messed up
What's it to you? just leave me alone; I wanna live my own life for me, and not for anyone else, and i don't want anyone living their life for me. Just leave me alone.
I can't even spend some time to write to my friends without insurmountable expectations running through my mind on who i should or shouldn't please; who i shouldn't or shouldn't contact; who I should or shouldn't remain close with; who I should or shouldn't treat this way or that way.
Well allow me to be selfish for a spell. Have you ever considered my feelings, without me having to tell you what they are. Be selfless-like ive been- for a second. Stop. Think about it.

Im not afraid to say it, I just don't feel i have to.

Just leave me alone...

Let. Me. Breathe.

I am stifled.

Leave me Alone

Don't say a word, I feel the pain,
My heart is crushed and I am slain.
Leave me alone, please leave me alone,
I'll never fall in love again, that's my vow.

Leave me now, don't see me cry,
I don't want to hear anymore lies.
My tears are falling as you leave,
I can't believe my heart you cleaved.

I trusted you with all my life,
Now I feel the burden of this strife.
Day and night, I feel the pain,
Killed by memories again and again.

If you see me, please be quiet,
Don't say a word, please be silent.
Leave me alone, leave me alone,
My heart is dead, I'm just flesh and bone.

Unknown

Drowning in My Sorrow :(

Slowly drowning in my sorrow
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I am in an ocean of doubt and despair,
gradually sinking and gasping for air.
Knowing life is not a light switch you can flip on and off
Simply settling and accepting I have to carry on.
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact
out of fear of how those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a woman, burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I,
makes me afraid and let out defeated sighs.
Since it seems like things will always be this way,
its frustrating because I have to go through it day after day.
Yet, when my quandaries are more than I can bare,
I can at least take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are, and so do I.
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge, from giving up and giving in.
::sigh::

Lourdes Medel

How I Feel??I Feel Lost (╥﹏╥)

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
when you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?
When you feel like you've hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When your in your house but it don't feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems too long.

A Shattered Heart

Some say a broken heart is like a shattered vase
Fragile pieces are scattered all over the place.
The pieces of broken glass seem to go everywhere
And even at times seems to pierce the soul
With faith and hope you try to mend the broken heart
Unlike the vase it cannot be so easily replaced.
It takes a while to heal and then you lock it up
You hide the key and wait to see if someone can be found
A special person who will use the key to unlock the heart
A unique person who will handle the heart with gentle hands,
Who can be honest, truthful and handle it with care.

And I wonder is there really is that kind of person out there.

Spreading My Wings (^_^)

Im going to close my eyes and spread my wings.

And make a wish and dream good dreams.

Im never going to say, that I'll never fall

Cause life is short and very fragile 

I just stood still and took a look.

Before I knew it, I was hooked.

Then in a blink of an eye

I realized that it was all a lie.

Up I look and everything's gone.

Why the days feel so long?

What was once there has now disappeared.

Now, love is the only thing for me to fear.

Why say yes when it was a no?

I opened my eyes only to find,

that it was my sign.

So im closing my eyes and spreading my wings.

And make a good wish and LIVE my dreams!

So..When??I Won't be Here Forever U Noe ;)

What do I have to do to get you to notice me?
Change my hair, the way I walk.
My clothes, the way I talk.
We've known each other for some time now 
yet I'm still invisible to you. 
My feelings run deep and how
I wish you only knew.
I see your face every time I close my eyes
To me you just seem so different from the other guys.
To you I'm just a friend
Nothing more, nothing less
I settle for friendship in the end
Because I don't want to make a mess.
Instead I'll keep my secret to myself 
And take my pride back off the shelf.
Until one day you finally see 
That you and I were meant to be.
I'll wait for now but not too long
Because sooner or later I'll be gone.

So when will you notice me?

Im Sorry But I Still Love U

I'm sorry friend 
I don't know what to do
I try so hard
to be a better person to you 

I screw up a lot 
and I ignore you too
I don't know why 
but I still love you

you're my best friend 
I know we can make it through 
lets make this friendship last
and make it better and true 

I know your getting sick of me
I'm getting sick of myself too
I don't know how many times 
I can say sorry to you 

but really I am a fool
to let such a wonderful 
friendship break in two

I'm going to push aside the past now
I'm going to be nicer to you
and show what I can do

you're my best friend still 
and you're my favorite too 
remember the good times and I
know we'll make it through.

God..Please

Life remains a mystery but is full of misery, 
They say the past is history,
Then why is it clear for all to see,
What is it that you all expected of me. 
Sorry I am not the one you thought I'd be 
I'm locked in my own emotions,
Where is the key?
God,
if you can hear me,
Here's my plea.
Bring him back to me,
My heart's locked but he holds the key.

Inside Out

Outside lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room,
yet inside hides a girl with a frown full of despair.

Outside lives a girl with eyes of joy that brings you to ease,
yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of sadness.

Outside lives a girl with a beautiful laugh that's contagious,
yet inside hides a girl screaming her lungs out in unwanted anger.

Outside lives a girl with the personality everyone envies,
yet inside hides a girl full of insecurities and shame.

Outside lives a girl who is fearless and tough,
yet inside hides a weak girl who lives in fear.

Outside lives a girl full of life,
yet inside hides a girl full of pain, wanting to die.

Outside lives a girl with a perfect image,
yet inside hides a girl with regrets and mistakes.

Outside lives a girl of innocence,
yet inside hides a girl with tremendous guilt.

Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations,
yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion.

What you see on the outside is my personal disguise,
What hides underneath you can't even begin to imagine.

Im Alone :(

I've done so well until now,
I feel like I'm going downhill,
the slopes are deep, and I feel like I'm at the peak
And  I was doing so well...
Until now
Not knowing were to go,
not knowing to say yes or no
I feel so low, I don't know were to go
I just wish things would change,
and I would feel out of the cage.
I feel so locked up
and unable to get out.
If only I could see
how high I felt when I was free
but I can't because I think there is no longer the light that I can see.

Forever Friends

Associates are just there,
and friends are with you everywhere.
When times are rough,
they tell you don’t give up.
If you don’t know what to do,
they will help you.
Never leave your side,
even when you try to hide.
They’ll be with you through it all,
and pick you up when you fall.
Laugh at the things you say even when it’s not funny,
while everybody stares like we’re dummies.
We may argue and fight,
but we’ll be talking the next night.
That’s when you know you know,
you friendship is tight.
And Every Thing Will Be Alright.

In The Arms of Mr. Darcy by Sharon Lathan

“Your smile stops the minutes
 And as moments they dance in candlelight.
While your eyes whisper secrets,
My heart with wings takes flight.
In search for more of you to know,
Of why and what make you so,
Then mystery pleads her case
And once again I found your face.
There to know beauty true
And gentle winds of peace and love,
With eyes like jewels shining,
Looking to the One above.
And the moments which find life there
Become the brightest stars above,
Which live forever beautiful
In the sky of my heart’s love.”