Drowning in My Sorrow :(

Slowly drowning in my sorrow
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I am in an ocean of doubt and despair,
gradually sinking and gasping for air.
Knowing life is not a light switch you can flip on and off
Simply settling and accepting I have to carry on.
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact
out of fear of how those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a woman, burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I,
makes me afraid and let out defeated sighs.
Since it seems like things will always be this way,
its frustrating because I have to go through it day after day.
Yet, when my quandaries are more than I can bare,
I can at least take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are, and so do I.
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge, from giving up and giving in.
::sigh::

Lourdes Medel

How I Feel??I Feel Lost (╥﹏╥)

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
when you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?
When you feel like you've hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When your in your house but it don't feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems too long.

A Shattered Heart

Some say a broken heart is like a shattered vase
Fragile pieces are scattered all over the place.
The pieces of broken glass seem to go everywhere
And even at times seems to pierce the soul
With faith and hope you try to mend the broken heart
Unlike the vase it cannot be so easily replaced.
It takes a while to heal and then you lock it up
You hide the key and wait to see if someone can be found
A special person who will use the key to unlock the heart
A unique person who will handle the heart with gentle hands,
Who can be honest, truthful and handle it with care.

And I wonder is there really is that kind of person out there.

Spreading My Wings (^_^)

Im going to close my eyes and spread my wings.

And make a wish and dream good dreams.

Im never going to say, that I'll never fall

Cause life is short and very fragile 

I just stood still and took a look.

Before I knew it, I was hooked.

Then in a blink of an eye

I realized that it was all a lie.

Up I look and everything's gone.

Why the days feel so long?

What was once there has now disappeared.

Now, love is the only thing for me to fear.

Why say yes when it was a no?

I opened my eyes only to find,

that it was my sign.

So im closing my eyes and spreading my wings.

And make a good wish and LIVE my dreams!