My head is Messed up

My head is messed up
What's it to you? just leave me alone; I wanna live my own life for me, and not for anyone else, and i don't want anyone living their life for me. Just leave me alone.
I can't even spend some time to write to my friends without insurmountable expectations running through my mind on who i should or shouldn't please; who i shouldn't or shouldn't contact; who I should or shouldn't remain close with; who I should or shouldn't treat this way or that way.
Well allow me to be selfish for a spell. Have you ever considered my feelings, without me having to tell you what they are. Be selfless-like ive been- for a second. Stop. Think about it.

Im not afraid to say it, I just don't feel i have to.

Just leave me alone...

Let. Me. Breathe.

I am stifled.

Leave me Alone

Don't say a word, I feel the pain,
My heart is crushed and I am slain.
Leave me alone, please leave me alone,
I'll never fall in love again, that's my vow.

Leave me now, don't see me cry,
I don't want to hear anymore lies.
My tears are falling as you leave,
I can't believe my heart you cleaved.

I trusted you with all my life,
Now I feel the burden of this strife.
Day and night, I feel the pain,
Killed by memories again and again.

If you see me, please be quiet,
Don't say a word, please be silent.
Leave me alone, leave me alone,
My heart is dead, I'm just flesh and bone.

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